Nothing... Nada...

It's getting really boring over here. There are no meds to take- no tests to take- nothing to do but wait. And if there is something that I do worse than waiting I am totally unsure what it is!

Nothing to tell

There's not really anything to tell. I took the last dose of Prometrium last night- so I'm just waiting for CD 1... hopefully it will be tomorrow.

So just to prove that this cycle is cursed... if it works, I am likely to have the baby on April Fool's Day... yippie! (yes, I'm a freak...)

Yippie!

I am on day 8 (of 10) of the prometrium. It isn't bad... just makes me VERY dizzy in the middle of the night. Scary dizzy... won't attempt to pick up the child for fear of falling over dizzy.

But other than that- it's a blast. Hopefully by Monday we'll have CD 1 and this crazy long wait will be traded in for a different crazy long wait.

Moving On

So we're moving on to IUI. I was tempted to write IUI #1, but well, I am hoping that we don't need IUI #2, so for now we'll pretend it will be the one and only... mmkay?

I was supposed to start the Prometrium tonight, but Mrs Dr forgot to call it in... oops. So I'll call tomorrow and start then. With any luck, the next cycle will start before I'm done with that anyway. If not, we're looking at the 24th or 25th being CD 1. To be honest, it would be nice to make it through the trip without that little visitor. But if it would mean saving a few days of waiting I guess it wouldn't be so bad! But regardless, by July 13th we'll have the IUI, we'll know if it worked by the 27th.

Anyway... that's where things stand. Keep your fingers crossed! =)

Day 28 *edited... again*

And I feel like SHIT! (sorry mom!)

I got up this morning and thought... "I should test" but I talked myself out of it... convinced beyond a doubt that there is no way that I am pregnant. So I got up, Brody and I played, and now I want nothing more than to spend the rest of the day curled up on the bathroom floor.

I called the doctor and am waiting for a return call with the test results. If they come back positive, I'll test tonight or tomorrow morning. If it comes back negative, I'll be having a talk about starting prometrium so that we can move forward.

Ah the joys...

Edited to add... not pregnant... still waiting to hear from the Dr

Edited again to add.... progesterone .6- should have been over 4. Clomid starts either day 3 or 5 of next cycle... grrrr.....

Hmmm...

So I am awaiting the results from the doctor's office. They should have gotten them over the weekend, so I figure I'll wait until around lunch or so and give them a call... which will be futile, because they'll just end up calling me back at 6 tonight regardless, but well, it will make me feel better.

The thoughts of "I might be pregnant" have ebbed. While I understand that there is a minuscule chance of it, I have to admit, that I truly don't think I am. I think the migraines were poorly timed allergies, and I think the rest can be attributed to the wonderful world of PMS. Depending on the results of the progesterone test though, I may POAS tomorrow morning just to take away any doubt. Hopefully that way, I won't stress myself into a late period and we can start this cycle as early as possible.

Did I mention that I'll be taking Clomid during the trip to California? I am packing lots of sweats for Brody to wear at night since I'm guessing the air conditioner will be set to a very low temperature. I'm also wondering if it makes any sense at all to take the Pack N Play with us, since I'll probably be so worried that he's cold that I'll end up having him in bed with us anyway. Did I mention that I haven't started packing? Or figuring out what to take in the slightest? Or done any laundry so that we have clean clothes? The only thing I have done is ask my parents to keep the kitty so that she's not lonely. She hasn't been too happy lately- very much missing her pal, so I don't want to leave her for 6 days without anyone here.

PMS?

If I weren't me... as in if I were a wonderfully fertile woman who actually had the ability to get pregnant- I would be having a hard time convincing myself that I wasn't. I am 7 days past surge, I have a nasty migraine, I'm nauseous (why can't I ever spell that word?), yesterday I had sharp pains that reminded me of when Brody was implanting, my sense of smell seems overly sharp despite feeling all stuffed up, and I'm slightly more hormonal than normal. All in all, I'm feeling peachy, can't you tell? =)

But since I'm not your regular fertile woman, all I can really think of is that I can't wait for the next week to be over so that we can really start trying. Because really, anything that doesn't include a test tube of sperm between my breasts and a doctor's office, is just a waste, right? (Was that too graphic? Slightly out of line? I think it's the hormones... makes me cynical and well makes me lose the filters of what I should and shouldn't say.)

ANYWHO... I would love to be optimistic. I would love to think that maybe just maybe it will work and that everything would be fine. I'll confess, I even looked up what my due date would be if I am pregnant (Feb 22nd)... but I also looked up what it would be if I get pregnant next month (March 20th), or the month after that (April 17th), and if I get pregnant in August (May 15th... Happy Birthday to me!) (though none of those dates reflect what clomid might or might not do to the length of my cycle)

But really, I'm not crazy... unless it's a week before my period should start, and there is even a .0000000001% chance that I could be pregnant.

Progesterone test tomorrow.

LH Surge?

So I goofed... I had a pack of non name brand OPK tests, and had been using the last of them up this month- knowing that the OB wouldn't be too thrilled with using them next month. She's an OPK snob that one. But now I know why. I think I surged. There was a second line, it was of the darker nature, but possibly, maybe not "as dark or darker" than the test line. That was Wednesday. Yesterday, I went out and got the name brand ones (my OB likes First Response...) and tested again. There was virtually no line.. none. Does LH really disappear from your system that quickly? Actually... yes. After more research (could you tell that I took a 15 minute break after asking the question? I'll bet you had a hard time waiting for me to come back, no?) I found out that it does only stay elevated for 24 hours or less....

So apparently, I ovulated yesterday... in and of itself, that's a pretty cool thing. I called the doctor and asked if I could do a progesterone test next week. Basically, I want to determine for sure if there is a reason to take the clomid. If I'm ovulating regularly with the metformin, then I'm not sure there's a point... she might see things differently, but it's worth a shot, right? She's not in on Friday's, so I have to wait to hear her thoughts, but I'm hopeful- and that's a lot more than I could say a year and a half ago.